Tuesday, September 26, 2006

no time to be creative

I am here typing to say that this blog has met its doom.

Goodbye while I find some place else like my lost LJ account.

10:59 PM

Sunday, July 09, 2006

picture log

flashingneonlights.blogspot

6:26 AM

that's IT

I just knew it.

I feel the vines of depression twining around me. The plant's thriving, yeah.

Self-pity sucks and knowing that I can't do a thing about any sucks even more.

6:20 AM

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

It's hopeless

The desire to leave that institution called school. It is strengthening. Can you feel it pulsing under your skin?

It is dreadful. The feeling of utter disregard and disrepair and lack of perseverance.

Forgive me if I annoy you with my incessant dumb comments and ways. ~~I just need attention.~~ I am disappointed with the way I am. I know it is up to me change myself. Why can't I then? I lack motivation, dearies. I lack motivation. Darlings, if I ever irritate you and get on your nerves, I'm sorry.

It's just me throwing myself into the bottomless pit of self-pity.

I cry because I am in pain, you bitches.

7:34 AM

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

bubble girl

Is it just me or am I just a natural-born loner. I know that it has something to do with all those negative vibes around me.

That air of cold, arrogant silence.
That indifference.
That spaced look.

I brought it unto myself, haven't I? Well, I have certainly got issues I have yet to solve since last year.

A bubble.
Trapped in a bubble.
Plexiglass bubble.

Well, guess what.

I've never felt more alone and I deserve it.

Hankering for attention. Doing stupid stuff. Attention, yes. Stupid attention that gets you thrown out of class.

)(*^&*^$@$&^

I will not forgive for that. Basket.

7:26 AM

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Variation Prone

Sorry you for taking that phrase of your URL but that is exactly what I have been feeling. I have read through my livejournal and whoah, it is so open. I literally poured out my freaking emotions into that. Argh.

I NEED diary-x. Come back NOW.

~~In the meantime,~~ I shall password my blog soon.

There.

Help me, I think I need a new web log.

9:17 PM

Home for June

It's going to be June, dear. June. Wowsers. June. Great, good old June. My title speaks volumes of what I will be doing with June, doesn't it?

-pause-

Fine. Maybe I lied but that what it feels like. I am staying home for the holidays. Mostly taking of poor, old granny at home. Yes, dear people, I take care of my grandmother. When I say take care, it does not mean the usual feeding-and-looking-after-her kind, it is the nursing-bathing-feeding-clothing-changing diapers-carrying-her kind. If you think I lead a darn happy, free and easy life, think again. Think why I could not fulfill some tasks efficiently. Think why I could not smile as easily. Think why I cherished being work-free. But I have responsibilities have I not? For that, I apologise for not telling you straight to the face that I am bogged down with my frequent indulgence of self pity.

-full stop-

Okay, so I got a bit of that away, let's see what I have done so far for the holidays.

Biology report (:
Gotten a domain name and registered it. ((!
Drafted out the proposal Yee Chuin wanted. (hopefully, she gets it by tomorrow)
Starting on the WEBQUEST!!! : D

Looking, it is not much. Rahh. I better continue finalising the skimpy proposal I have.

Oh and oh, I went to Desaru and it rocks. (::